I'm going to lock this if I remember how after I finish this.
I've played on here, as well as playing ET for a long time. Always liked to think of myself as bit of normal sorta bloke, liked a laugh as well as a frag fest. ET has been a great release of tension for years no matter how much I got pew pewd by the better players.
In the last 2 to 3 months I havent been on the server as much as I would have, which is weird as I have been off work since February.
I love the anonymosity of this.
I have suffered complex PTSD because of work, with dramatic mood swings and anger issues being the norm, weird for me I have to tell you. I have been involved in quite a few situations over my career and after being almost stabbed again, I have had a break down.
I have taken it out on a few people who play ET on OZ and to those people I openly and publicly apologise. I am not going to make any excuses, I have handed out a bit which was uncalled for.
Joker - although you have been guilty as hell of abusing people, nothing excuses the curry I have given you in the last few weeks. I apologise as it was uncalled for and you acted more maturally than I which is great considering I am more than twice your age from memory. Anyone else I hung it on, I apologise to you as well.
I have no idea if my real life career is over or not which is hard after doing it for 20 years. I am working towards getting back.
Anyway - enough. I am going to lock this. If I act like a dickhead on the server, bear with me till my head is back where it needs to be. If my actions call for - shit, boot me from the clan, ban me, whatever, its a game and if I am acting like a chump take the appropriate action.
I've played on here, as well as playing ET for a long time. Always liked to think of myself as bit of normal sorta bloke, liked a laugh as well as a frag fest. ET has been a great release of tension for years no matter how much I got pew pewd by the better players.
In the last 2 to 3 months I havent been on the server as much as I would have, which is weird as I have been off work since February.
I love the anonymosity of this.
I have suffered complex PTSD because of work, with dramatic mood swings and anger issues being the norm, weird for me I have to tell you. I have been involved in quite a few situations over my career and after being almost stabbed again, I have had a break down.
I have taken it out on a few people who play ET on OZ and to those people I openly and publicly apologise. I am not going to make any excuses, I have handed out a bit which was uncalled for.
Joker - although you have been guilty as hell of abusing people, nothing excuses the curry I have given you in the last few weeks. I apologise as it was uncalled for and you acted more maturally than I which is great considering I am more than twice your age from memory. Anyone else I hung it on, I apologise to you as well.
I have no idea if my real life career is over or not which is hard after doing it for 20 years. I am working towards getting back.
Anyway - enough. I am going to lock this. If I act like a dickhead on the server, bear with me till my head is back where it needs to be. If my actions call for - shit, boot me from the clan, ban me, whatever, its a game and if I am acting like a chump take the appropriate action.
